January 1, 2023

 Another new year and my deep realizations.

People can be there for me in their own way, not mine. 

I can be there for others in my way, but perhaps not how they are expecting.

This is big for me to finally recognize!!

Friends who have moved on for a variety of reasons; I need to let go without hard feelings. They were here for the time to walk through my life and teach a lesson. I may be approaching 70 years old but I can learn. I have learned. Go in peace.

I thought I could never mourn again after losing our sweet son, Alex. I was wrong. I have lost several friends since then and I do mourn them. Not like him but I do feel the sadness.

I have learned the hard way to not judge people and their devotion to their pets. We were so devoted to our Frenchie, Truffle, and she died after 13 years. Wow! I mourn and miss my sweet girl.

I made a vow to not discuss politics of any sort during this 2023 year. I am tired of it all. I did my part to get that monster out of the White House and now I leave it to others to fight the never ending battle of his minions. I want peace. I lost friends over the time he was in office and after the insurrection. I regret how I handled my part in all this. But I have let them go also..with love and sorrow.

It has been five years since we landed in our new home of North Las Vegas. We love it here. I don’t miss Oregon at all. Most of our friends travel here to see us. Morgan has moved here and finally found himself. The friends who did not do their part to keep in touch I have let go with love. They could not be part of my long distance life. I truly cared for these people but cannot control their choices. I hope they are well.

I have issues. Last year I battled breast cancer. I have a neurological disease which has taken away my ability to walk. And I battle asthma, the reason we moved here. 

But I do not have far to look for the major joys in my life. John, my husband of 51 years; Morgan, our beloved son who is now nearby; incredible local friends; beyond incredible life friends who fly in to see us often. That is where I am placing my energy from here on out. 

So Happy New Year to all. Sending love to those gone too soon.